little-red-in-a-forest-of-wolves asked: Honestly, I don't want to see you leave. I know I don't know you but all you've been is hurt and that's not fair. It hurts, it hurts so fucking much. I understand why you want to die. That's the same reason why I want to hurl my body off a building in New York. But you seem like you can actually do something about this shit infested world. You doubt it but I have faith that you could. You didn't die for a reason. We may not know the reason but you're still here. Shouldn't that say something?

I guess I know what you mean. I am gettin help. So when I come back I’ll be able to help. Haha :) thanks for being so kind. People like you give me the strength to carry on after I fall.

// First suicide attempt (Day 1, cutting)//

The first day I just stood there, I saw what I had done. I dropped the knife, I walked away, I thought that death had won. I then sat down thinking, why the fuck do I want to bleed? I escaped the never ending stream which many men have seen.

// I’m back in the ER…//

I didn’t die… Haha.

Anonymous asked: I know I don't know you, but a few nights ago I came to your blog to sort of see how you were going, because of how suicidal you were feeling. After I saw that you hadn't posted in a week, I proceeded to cry uncontrollably for hours until I was so exhausted that I fell asleep. And I just want to tell you how proud I am of you for continuing to get help, and I hope, for now wanting it and seeing some hope. I'm so, so fucking glad that you're still seeing and breathing. <3

Haha that’s really sweet(: but sorry for all that. Trying get over my problems.

808homegirl asked: awwe that sucks, but Congrats<3 hope your doing better now. I am okay ish still dealing with my bad mental/physical health condition

If you ever need help I’m here! :)

you-guys-want-ice-cream asked: *hugs you tightly and runs away*

Haha thanks :) hugs are always nice.

Anonymous asked: Just saying, what that anon told you about cutting vertically, he said in the exact same words a character said in American Horror Story. Sorry, fangirl moment.

Bomb show. But I missed hella episodes!!! Damn mental hospital!!

contra-spem-spero asked: You are so much more than the sadness you feel, the worthlessness that consumes your waking thoughts, the anxiety that eats away at you, the thoughts that terrify you and the scars that mark your beautiful body. You are you, and you are wonderful. I'm here if you ever need to talk, I promise you it's going to be okay baby <3

Thank you. You’re hella kind. I wish people in real life were as kind as my tumblr homies. :)

Anonymous asked: why don´t you answer all of your messages? :/

Cuz I’m in the fucking ER. But I’ll answer them now jeeze… Damn kids and there skinny pants and there fancy tumblr themes….

oceanwonde-r asked: STOP PLEASE! Nothing could ever replace you in this world, you think nobody would care, but there are people who care, i'm sure that you are an amazing guy! so please stop..

Nawh we’re all being replaced by aliens. They started with the fucking celebrities. The human race is going to be harvested. Just ask the fucking government…. So yes I can be replaced…. I’m in ER sorry I’m just pissed… And crazy. Thanks for your concern and sweet words. Made me happy for once.